~This song sings about my birth's
events. I have chosen to add it here before my birth story because it reflects
part of its happenings. This song touches the core of my being every single time
I hear it and it makes me realize that PAPA DIEU was there all the time+~
 
Because YOU LOVED me!
I don't know how I survived
In this cold and empty world for all this time
I only know that I'm alive
Because YOU LOVED me
When I recall what I've been through
Theres some things that I wish I didn't do
Now I know the things I do
Because YOU LOVED me
And now that YOU'RE in my life,
I'm so glad I'm alive
Cause YOU showed me the way
And I know now I good it can be,
Because YOU LOVED me
Oh, and now that YOU'RE in my life
Oohh I'm so glad I'm alive
Cause YOU showed me the way and
I know now how good it can be
Because YOU LOVED me
I believe in things unseen
I believe in the message of a dream
And I believe in WHAT YOU ARE
Because YOU LOVED me
With all my heart, and all my soul
I'm loving YOU and I'll never will let
it go
And every day I'll let it show
Because YOU LOVED me
Because YOU LOVED me
Ooh ooh because YOU LOVED me
Song by: JoDee Messina
from CD; I'm Alright
~On a winter storm Saturday,
February 16, 1946, I was born on this Earth in a hospital toilet. My earthly mother
had been brought to the hospital by her doctor himself, who drove about thirty miles in a driving snow storm, to the hospital
because of complications in delivering me. At the hospital the doctor had instructed that a nurse was to stay at my
earthly mothers bedside 24hrs. a day, but the nurse on duty left the bedside for a certain amount of time due to a personal
need. My earthly mother knew I was close to enter this world, she did not ring
for the nurse but walked to the bathroom in delirious pain -she described every time, and, due to a very lenghtly story
I omit all its details here- walking all by herself to the bathroom where I then was born, in the toilet. She also told me that my arms were what had stopped my body from going in the hole to the sewer, that,
my arms were extended outward, like a cross manner, and, that she saw my head all illuminated.
I was taken out of the hospital that same day I was born, and brought home to be taken care of by my, then unmarried paternal
aunt, and I was baptized the next day, that was a Sunday. My aunt took care of
me for three years my earthly mother confided in my when I was in my 40s.
My earthly mother has told me this
story a thousand times. One day though, when I was in my early 40's, she
was in one of her rages and she had drank liquor, and swearing(ly) yelling at me and then she screamed out; "I flushed
you three times but did you did not go in the sewer, my damned you etc". That,
as she was flushing she was pushing my head for my body to go in the sewer I had not gone through, ending her screaming with
more swearing me to hell.
Then one Sunday afternoon when I was in my late
40's, my husband and I were enjoying a Sunday drive and I asked him if he wanted to go see my earthly mother who was in a
resident for elderly people. We did go see her.
As I entered her room she grabbed me and gave me a hug, she gave a hug to my husband. Then she told
me that she had something to tell me that was on her heart for as long as I was born and that she just had to tell me. I was sitting next to her on her bed and my husband was in a rocking chair next to
me, close to me that is. Then she started with making the sign of the cross,
blessing/crossing herself, clasped her hands together and raising them in the air, looking up at the ceiling said in French:
"as true as there is a God that enlightens me B, I never took you for my child". I do not remember what she had added
after those words. My husband touched me thigh and motioned me to get out of
there, but my earthly mother saw him touched me. I told him that I wanted
to hear all that was on her heart. She continued to express her sadness that
I had been attached to my paternal aunt more than to her, and, that she was not happy about that. I then told her that I was a baby and the person who was taking care of me, the face I had seen daily,
the face that nursed, fed and cleaned me daily, for me must have been my mother and that must be why I was attached
to my aunt when I was a baby, and the years on.
I just had
to leave then, because, I did not want her to see me crying. I cried a river
of sadness. ~
+ ~PS~ Here I would like to add;
PLEASE, do not judge what you read here
about my earthly mother. I have forgiven her totatlly, I do not condemn her, judge her, hold a grudge, etc., against
her. For who am I to judge my neighbor. If I do not judge, I will not be judged. And for that matter, who
on this earth did not
sin? I have made my PEACE with my earthly
mother and I pray she had made her peace with PAPA DIEU!
If,
she would not have done that to me, I would not
be here writing about the LOVE I WAS GIVEN AT MY BIRTH.
Remember,
if you judge, you in turn will be judged!
May you be blessed for understanding! +
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